In other news, nothing too exciting is happening here. TJ really pissed me off by cancelling plans at the time we had them, and gave me the "I'll call you as soon as my cousins leave and we will grab dinner then and talk about all of this." HE NEVER CALLED. I figured he wouldn't, but still.

I called him later that night (Sunday) and we made plans for after work Monday...heh. Never heard from him again. SOOOO, I have decided that I refuse to put up with this crap anymore. My goal right now is to cut him out of my life. It won't be easy, because part of me doesn't want to. He's always been there for me (until recently thanks to his mother, but that's a whole 'nother story that will for a later entry.)

SO - I'm not going to answer his calls, I'm not going to go see him, pick him up, call him, etc. I will call/contact him two times...1 a week before I move to remind him that he has stuff at the apartment that he has to get...and then a few days before I turn in my keys for that apartment to again remind him that I'm moving and his stuff will be gone if he doesn't come to get it.

Other than that - - - I'm cutting off one of my best friends. It hurts, but I refuse to be treated like crap after everything I did for him. I was there for all of his testing for his surgery, drove him around, took care of the bills, insurance stuff, medicine's etc... and this is how I get treated...I don't care if we aren't in a relationship, we have a friendship, and friends don't treat friends like that. At least mine don't. So, if he wants it to be over and for me to leave him alone - he's going to get his wish. But when he realizes *again* that he screwed up and misses me and wants to make this work again, be friends, hang out, whatever it may be - - - -sorry buddy.

He asked me to wait for him until after surgery and then we would date. Granted, a day later he denied that because he was pissed about something, but I guess the way I see it, if he loves me enough to try it then, there is no reason not to try it now. Sure, he's stressed, but so am I. My best male friend, someone I've developed more feelings for than I thought possible is undergoing brain surgery - who wouldn't be stressed....

*sighs*