I've never been so unhappy/depressed in my life. I can't hold back the tears, the thoughts, the ideas, the inevitable.
I just wanna disappear. Let's be honest - I really, seriously, just want to die.
I don't know how much I can handle. My medicine isn't helping anymore...Things with TJ suck, things with Jeff suck, I don't know what I'm doing, I don't know what I want out of my life, and I just can't handle my life anymore. I don't like where I am, but I can't change it. I can't do ANYTHING about it. I've tried accepting, changing, moving on, striving for something new, rediscovering myself, all of it.
I have nothing left. Honestly...I really, truly don't. Everything I've ever wanted, ever loved, ever dreamed, ever had has been taken away. It's gone, and I can't get it back.
I'm sorry if I made you love me, like me, miss me. I'm sorry I had to leave. I'm just so sorry.