I had a lil chit-chat with Valerie last night....found out her and Jeff have been dating for a couple months and her and I clued each other in on some major issues.

Regardless, I love him, and I always will....but I need to let go. It's not easy...I'm having a really hard time. I can't stop crying, and I'm even at work right now. I've been crying since this all happened.

He called me later last night after the shit hit the fan and all and apologized. He was genuinely sorry, but he lied, and he hurt me AND he cheated with more than just her.

It's a really long and complicated story, but I love him - and my heart wants him all to myself still, but my head says no....and who knows, I don't know if they are going to try and work themselves out or not, but I'm going over there to talk to him tomorrow, get the rest of my stuff and the check for the money he owes me.

His parents ended up coming over last night to calm him down. It was NOT a good night. I am extremely depressed.....Help me...Help me...Give me strength....Stop the tears...Help me move on....